I appreciated the reading today in "My Utmost for His Highest" by Oswald Chambers. http://utmost.org/ He mentions how God does not want to teach us something in our trials - He wants us to unlearn something. He also mentions the idea of simplifying our beliefs until our relationship with Him is like that of a child.
I've fretted for a while now about my prayer life - or more accurately, the lack of depth thereof. Over the last year, I've had very few (if any) deep, lasting, and epic prayer "experiences." As someone who has experienced that type of life in The Body in the past, I've felt for a while now that something must be wrong. And perhaps there is something wrong...something that needs attention....perhaps a GREATER sense of devotion.
But last night as I gave thanks for our meal, and this morning as I read Mr. Chambers writings, I think what is happening is an inner simplification. A reducing of my grandiose ideas of what prayer is. A realization that my Utmost really doesn't amount to much. A newfound sensitivity to the simple - so simple that my prayers have amounted to little more this past year than "Thank You Lord"...."I Love You."
Am "I" ok with that kind of simplicity? Am "I" ok that my ideas of prayer and adoration have been reduced to a few pitiful syllables?
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